Time with God

The following is a prayer that I prayed to God tonight... Yes, I'm being very transparent, but I feel the urge to be at this moment... After all, what Mother hasn't felt this way before?

Dear God,
I feel like I should say that I miss You. I haven't actually just "made" time to talk to you in a while. But, instead, I'm saying, "thank You." Thank You for understanding when somedays all I can say to You is, "Wow! That's an amazing child You made." Thank You for making me feel You when I'm editing a photograph and see Your love in someone's eyes as I zoom in on them. Thank You for giving me a husband who at times, spoon feeds me the Word of God because I'm all about being a Mommy and rarely find time to read anything other than Dr. Seuss books. Thank you for talents that make me aware everyday that You are amazing... that You are so near. I love seeing and being with the people You made. Thank You for knocking me back into reality when I feel like my kids are just too stressful for me. They aren't. They are from You and deserve my best even when I don't feel like giving them my best. Thank You for my church. That every Sunday morning I can feel You with an undeniable intensity that washes all my cares away. Thank You for friends who give status updates on Facebook that help me get Your Word and songs into my spirit each day as I do my job and answer inquiries. Thank You, God, for those inquiries that often lead to work, which leads to bread and milk and clothes for my babies. Thank You God for a best friend that knows just how to listen and let me rant... and then still loves me no matter how much of my ugliness she sees. Thank You for these tears rolling down my face because, in this prayer, I have realized that I shouldn't feel like I need to say, "I miss You." For, God, I see now that You have helped me to create a conversation with You everyday... whether I have realized it or not. You have heard my deepest thoughts that pass through my heart, even though I haven't utter the words to You. You have given me scripture to help me through the day, even though I haven't picked Your Word up in my hands. You have given me a chance to sing to You. You show me Your beauty in everyday things. You teach me to love better and deeper with each reality check. God, thank You, for loving us Mothers. For knowing what we need each day. Thank You for understanding that we seek to be everything for our families. Thank You for giving us a way to "talk" to You when we have over booked ourselves. I love You, Father! You are amazing! You have my back even when I don't know it.
Amen